it's school holiday!

im praying hard that i will pass my management science :X

having one week of break now before my one-month summer term starts in may.. then hopefully our tioman trip will come true, whee~ and that i can find a vacation job too..
looking forward to see budds later :)

and im 21!
actually there isnt much difference when the day actually comes.. but thanks to everyone who remembered, smses or facebook messages, thank you thank you :)

im grateful for all the things dear did for me too.. the mini lenovo, the surprise email, the handmade card, and the surprise celebration at his mum's place..












and here is sok kee, vivian and me at marche last saturday:

things havent been as smooth-going as i wished for.. im starting to regret having brought him over to grandma's place.. he asked if i was ready, i thought i was too.. but i didnt expect this much to come..

grandma and aunties have been asking dad and mum to talk things out with me because they feel he's too old for me and that things will definitely not work out.. they say by the time he retires, i'll still be working and i'll have to support the family alone.. they feel im too young and i havent seen enough.. they say i've never made them worried since i was a kid and yet im doing this now..

some of their concerns were what held me back that time and i've really thought through them.. they feel i dont know what im doing..

mum's constant questionning didnt help at all.. she asked what do i see in him.. it's hard to put this into words.. i asked mum what she sees in dad too but she couldnt quite answer.. she has been making her own assumptions and jumping to conclusions about him which really make me quite defensive sometimes.. when i try to reason things out with her, she says i've changed.. when i keep quiet, she says she must be right that's why i have nothing to say.. i just feel tired having to explain the same thing over and over again to her when it makes no difference at all..

grandma asked me to slowly drift apart from him so that i could put an easier end to this.. seems like im a machine that can be switched on and off just like that..

till now, im grateful for how dad is handling this matter, at least he's the only one who is giving me my breathing space at home.. when i first told him im seeing someone who is twelve years older than me, i asked him if it's ok.. he nodded and said it's up to me and that he just wants me to commit as much in my studies too.. im sorry for the pressure that grandma and aunties have indirectly given him..

i know their reactions are natural and that all of them want the best for me.. im thankful there're so many people who love me and care about me.. but it certainly doesnt feel good being told i disappointed everyone..

sometimes i wanted so much to share with someone the little things he did for me and how happy i was.. sometimes i needed someone to say it's ok and to hold on.. but i realised the sources of support that i used to have are no longer there anymore..

thank you friends who understand and never fail to support me, i really appreciate it :)

feel so refreshed after a good month of holiday :)

school has been fine so far, workload is still ok i feel, now that it's only the second week.. bidded for one more module with sok kee last week cause we wanted to clear as much as we can.. so this term we're taking:
1. financial accounting
2. business, government and society
3. management science
4. management communication
5. statistics
i like this term's modules cause most of them are more mathematical, still prefer figures :)

things are going on well for me and him.. it feels really different this time, i've never felt this way before.. im happy and thankful we're together.. i've told dad too! :)

miss cousin, budds, kelly, dd, vivian.. wish all of you a good year, may all the bad things go away.. look forward to seeing you all soon!

the school holidays are finally here! felt a little lost when exams just ended and there's nothing to do, suddenly felt so free, and for the first time, bored at home haha..

but it's really time to rest and take a good break and do all the things that i've been wanting to do and hang out with family and friends :)

went for a kids camp organised by teck ghee cc last week.. had a very different experience as it's my first time attending a camp as an instructor, my first time really shouting cheers and singing camp songs till my voice became hoarse.. my first time bringing myself down to kids level and interact with them using their language.. im never good with kids before this, although im not exactly good now but at least the kids didnt ignore me haha.. taking care of the kids really takes a lot of responsibility and patience.. im so glad i went, really thankful to sokkee for introducing me to the camp.. miss kar mun, benedict and jing wen :)

and finally met up with kelly, budds, cousin and dd the last two weeks of holidays! :)
hope school is good for kelly! must take care ok even though work is busy!
and celebrated wei's and su's birthdays on wednesday, so happy everyone can make it, so happy to see you all, i still miss poly days as much.. poly days are still the best!
and met up with dd at last! so nice to catch up with each other :)
and also met up with cousin, and as usual, we have endless stuff to talk about.. im so glad we made it in our first semester of school! i got 4 Bs and 2 Cs, so glad i passed Analytical Skills! and my Business Law jumped two grades :)) continue to work hard together k! (and get well soon!)
SO HAPPY to see you all!

three weeks of holidays left! must make good use of them! :)

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it has been such a long time since i last blogged..

i guess i have more or less got used to uni life after the past two and a half months.. mid-terms are finally over.. projects and essays on hand as usual but i shan't complain anything about it cause that's what every student is going through too.. next two weeks will be busy weeks cause of many presentations and reports due.. but im glad i've learnt to let go and not stress myself up too much nowadays.. one of my friends even asked me why i dont look stress at all, which i think is good :)

sometimes when i take some time out to look at my life now, i want so much to be able to meet up with bestie to eat her favourite pastamania like we used to do, to get up earlier to meet cousin for breakfast, to meet buddies for long chitchat, to lunch with kelly, to go window shopping with mum, to meet sis for dinner after school.. i miss those days before uni..

lastly, just wish to end this post by saying that im thankful to him for coming into my life :)

it's MY weekend!
no going back to school for projects!
some time to breathe, finally! :)))))

it has already been one month since i started school.. have been occupied with all the before-class preparations and readings, after-class revisions, talks and project discussions.. really need to learn to manage my time better.. really need more time for my family and friends and for myself too..

classmates are ok but because we go to different classes for different modules, all of us are more like hi-bye friends i would say.. except for my leadership and teambuilding (LTB) teammates, they are really nice people to be with, very encouraging and supportive, i enjoy working with them..





















i always tell kelly i miss going back to work, i miss my three months at auntie's office.. kelly used to say this feeling will slowly fade after i get used to school life and make new friends there.. but now that i've already spent one month in school and made new friends, i still miss her! and i still wish very much that im still working there haha..

those who know me will know that going uni is not what i wanted.. even back in SP, i always feel that a diploma is enough and i know i will happy doing a 9-5 job and having time with my family and friends, and with my husband and kids next time i marry.. people have been telling me i'll realise the importance of a degree in future, i know it is important but im just contented with my diploma because ultimately, my ambition is still to become a housewife, maybe a working one, so at least i make some contribution to my family haha..

seeing me get into uni has always been dad's biggest dream, i still remember how happy he was the day i got the letter from SMU.. i know it's not easy to get into uni and im really lucky i have this opportunity but sometimes i do break down and feel that i cant cope with studies, sometimes i thought of giving up.. i may not get fantastic results in uni, but the thought of dad holds back my thought of quitting school.. i will keep on trying..

will be going back to office next monday to help uncle with his army tutorial, im really looking forward to it :)

prays that kevin gets well soon.. i still remember his smile everytime he comes into office, he looks so different lying in ICU with all the tubes.. i hope to see the old kevin again and i know he will definitely make it!

yesterday was my last day of work at auntie's office, really sad to be leaving.. appreciate the sweet messages on the card, i'll definitely miss every single one of them, kelly most of all.. all the gossiping, laughing and talking.. ahhh im missing her already.. really thankful for her patient guidance in work and for listening to the things i went through at camp and my worries about school and other stuff..

thanks cousin for being there for me all this while too, you never fail to understand..

been missing poly days too, the fun and the mugging.. gris, qian ling, foong, su, mei and wei, i miss you all..

cant wait for the upcoming Family Day, to see the familiar faces again :)