went back SP with sok kee to borrow a textbook for summer term cos we'll only be needing it for a month, luckily sok kee knows a junior whose card we can borrow..

the familiarity and sense of belonging filled me with joy and happy memories of schooldays and friends.. the hilltop, the malay stall, the corners in the library where we used to sit in between classes, stomachs growling in lectures, and many many more.. studying was an enjoyable thing in poly cos of my wonderful friends, i miss poly days, i miss my friends..

THANK YOU mei, foong, su, gris, wei and qian ling!!!!!

my dear friends celebrated my birthday for me at Fish and Co The Glass House at Parkmall, thanks for remembering that i only like fish, the dinner was really yummy!

last night there were so many birthday boys and girls there, every few minutes there would be a table of people singing birthday song for their friend.. and as i was looking at the birthday boy at the table beside ours made stand on the chair by the Fish and Co staff; he had to hold a fire sparkle while everyone else sang birthday song for him.. then gris suddenly asked if i envied the birthday boys and girls who had birthday cakes, i shook my head because i thought it's so malu up there in the limelight.. and foong started saying luckily i wore pants.. haha who knew i was next!! but it unexpectedly didnt felt malu at all standing on that chair, or perhaps cos it was dark so nobody could see my blush haha, but i was really happy and touched when my friends and the Fish and Co staff sang the birthday song for me, it was really loud cos there was another birthday boy standing with me too.. thanks huh, it's really unforgettable! hahahaha..

thanks for presents too! sorry for making you all spend so much.. really appreciate every little thought from each and every one of you! :)

THANK YOU SOOOOOO MUCH!!! :))

it's school holiday!

im praying hard that i will pass my management science :X

having one week of break now before my one-month summer term starts in may.. then hopefully our tioman trip will come true, whee~ and that i can find a vacation job too..
looking forward to see budds later :)

and im 21!
actually there isnt much difference when the day actually comes.. but thanks to everyone who remembered, smses or facebook messages, thank you thank you :)

im grateful for all the things dear did for me too.. the mini lenovo, the surprise email, the handmade card, and the surprise celebration at his mum's place..












and here is sok kee, vivian and me at marche last saturday:

things havent been as smooth-going as i wished for.. im starting to regret having brought him over to grandma's place.. he asked if i was ready, i thought i was too.. but i didnt expect this much to come..

grandma and aunties have been asking dad and mum to talk things out with me because they feel he's too old for me and that things will definitely not work out.. they say by the time he retires, i'll still be working and i'll have to support the family alone.. they feel im too young and i havent seen enough.. they say i've never made them worried since i was a kid and yet im doing this now..

some of their concerns were what held me back that time and i've really thought through them.. they feel i dont know what im doing..

mum's constant questionning didnt help at all.. she asked what do i see in him.. it's hard to put this into words.. i asked mum what she sees in dad too but she couldnt quite answer.. she has been making her own assumptions and jumping to conclusions about him which really make me quite defensive sometimes.. when i try to reason things out with her, she says i've changed.. when i keep quiet, she says she must be right that's why i have nothing to say.. i just feel tired having to explain the same thing over and over again to her when it makes no difference at all..

grandma asked me to slowly drift apart from him so that i could put an easier end to this.. seems like im a machine that can be switched on and off just like that..

till now, im grateful for how dad is handling this matter, at least he's the only one who is giving me my breathing space at home.. when i first told him im seeing someone who is twelve years older than me, i asked him if it's ok.. he nodded and said it's up to me and that he just wants me to commit as much in my studies too.. im sorry for the pressure that grandma and aunties have indirectly given him..

i know their reactions are natural and that all of them want the best for me.. im thankful there're so many people who love me and care about me.. but it certainly doesnt feel good being told i disappointed everyone..

sometimes i wanted so much to share with someone the little things he did for me and how happy i was.. sometimes i needed someone to say it's ok and to hold on.. but i realised the sources of support that i used to have are no longer there anymore..

thank you friends who understand and never fail to support me, i really appreciate it :)

feel so refreshed after a good month of holiday :)

school has been fine so far, workload is still ok i feel, now that it's only the second week.. bidded for one more module with sok kee last week cause we wanted to clear as much as we can.. so this term we're taking:
1. financial accounting
2. business, government and society
3. management science
4. management communication
5. statistics
i like this term's modules cause most of them are more mathematical, still prefer figures :)

things are going on well for me and him.. it feels really different this time, i've never felt this way before.. im happy and thankful we're together.. i've told dad too! :)

miss cousin, budds, kelly, dd, vivian.. wish all of you a good year, may all the bad things go away.. look forward to seeing you all soon!

the school holidays are finally here! felt a little lost when exams just ended and there's nothing to do, suddenly felt so free, and for the first time, bored at home haha..

but it's really time to rest and take a good break and do all the things that i've been wanting to do and hang out with family and friends :)

went for a kids camp organised by teck ghee cc last week.. had a very different experience as it's my first time attending a camp as an instructor, my first time really shouting cheers and singing camp songs till my voice became hoarse.. my first time bringing myself down to kids level and interact with them using their language.. im never good with kids before this, although im not exactly good now but at least the kids didnt ignore me haha.. taking care of the kids really takes a lot of responsibility and patience.. im so glad i went, really thankful to sokkee for introducing me to the camp.. miss kar mun, benedict and jing wen :)

and finally met up with kelly, budds, cousin and dd the last two weeks of holidays! :)
hope school is good for kelly! must take care ok even though work is busy!
and celebrated wei's and su's birthdays on wednesday, so happy everyone can make it, so happy to see you all, i still miss poly days as much.. poly days are still the best!
and met up with dd at last! so nice to catch up with each other :)
and also met up with cousin, and as usual, we have endless stuff to talk about.. im so glad we made it in our first semester of school! i got 4 Bs and 2 Cs, so glad i passed Analytical Skills! and my Business Law jumped two grades :)) continue to work hard together k! (and get well soon!)
SO HAPPY to see you all!

three weeks of holidays left! must make good use of them! :)

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it has been such a long time since i last blogged..

i guess i have more or less got used to uni life after the past two and a half months.. mid-terms are finally over.. projects and essays on hand as usual but i shan't complain anything about it cause that's what every student is going through too.. next two weeks will be busy weeks cause of many presentations and reports due.. but im glad i've learnt to let go and not stress myself up too much nowadays.. one of my friends even asked me why i dont look stress at all, which i think is good :)

sometimes when i take some time out to look at my life now, i want so much to be able to meet up with bestie to eat her favourite pastamania like we used to do, to get up earlier to meet cousin for breakfast, to meet buddies for long chitchat, to lunch with kelly, to go window shopping with mum, to meet sis for dinner after school.. i miss those days before uni..

lastly, just wish to end this post by saying that im thankful to him for coming into my life :)